Hey Folks,

So I'm surprised this topic hasn't been posted on here, so I decided on my way in to work this morning that I would start it.

So, I have to preface this with a couple of things;

1. I got engaged on Friday (and this was a moment I thought I would never see due to my anxiety and panic disorder.)
2. I celebrated a little too much to the point my hangover was real bad on Saturday, and it didn't help that my vertigo kicked in as well.
3. Not so much but thinking about the plane crash near my home was enough to "hurt" a little.

So, I'm dehydrated, I'm having side effects from my vertigo (headed to the doctor's today to see what they can do for it), I must've ate something tha tdidn't sit well with my stomach so I'm going to the bathroom alot this morning, and now I'm back at work.

My anxiety as a whole is okay, but the irrational thoughts are lingering. And yes, they're about hurting others. I have to admit that it has been worse, so I'm feeling okay with it. The experts say to just ignore the thoughts or let them be, which is what I'm doing. Pretty tough but I can recall a time when the thoughts felt so "real" that you couldn't imagine anything else.

Perseverence, acceptance, and coping techniques is all I need right now. Also, writing to you all about this is making it easier as well. If you can't share your thoughts on this forum, write them down in a journal. Don't keep them bent up inside of you becasue it'll only cause you more anxiety. Trust me, I couldn't wait to get to work to let you all know what I was feeling. It has taken me a while to be upfront and honest with everyone, but this feels real good. I can already tell I'm feeling alot better.

To those who are dealing with this right now, just remember that they are only toughts, and not reality. I suggest you listen to Paul's podcast on this subject because it does help. He's been through it, and he came out from the dark side of his battle. I've done it as well, and this is just a reminder that I still have work to do. So be it, I knew thsi wasn't going to be overnight, so I need to work on it and move on.

Peace and Calm,
Arturo

Thanks Sarah for the reply. It's a tough road but perseverence will get you through it. I try my hardest not to think about the thoughts, or even the feeling of "depression", and just battle through it. They tell you to get a good nights rest, eat well, drink lots of water, don't smoke or drink, etc. etc. You can do all of it and yet still feel as if your stuck in a rut. And like I said, my vertigo alone causes anxiety. So if it's not one thing, it's another.

Went to the doctor and they pretty much told me that my vertigo will eventually go away. That's what they told me in MArch when I was diagnosed with it, yet I still have some lingering effects from it. It gets frustrating but I continue to deal with it. When you look up stuff for vertigo, they tell you to do this and that, which i've done, yet it's the little effects from it that are bothering me on a constant basis. Hoping my acupuncturist will help me in getting rid of this.

Have a great day,
Arturo

I also have anxiety-inducing vertigo, though due to BPPV. When my anxiety is really bad, I get vertigo more often. That sometimes produces a panic attack, and I take a Dramamine to deal with the spinning. And by the time that kicks in, it knocks me out enough that I can finally relax. I hate it, and dizziness is a symptom of my anxiety to begin with, so I'm very sensitive to movement.

When I started on citalopram, I had really bad thoughts. It was strange for me because that wasn't like anything I had experienced before, at least to that extent. It really scared me because I couldn't get them out of my head, or it was like my mind was challenging me by thinking up even scarier ones. I woke up one night (because citalopram likes to do that to you) and my first thought was about hurting my cat. I felt awful of course and immediately burst into tears-- he's been my best friend through all of this. I then told my fiance who was very reassuring, so that helped. After I started listening to the AG podcast about this topic, I felt even better. No, I'm not crazy; none of us are.